It’s beautiful how you reached the realisation of surrendering being an action in itself. The underlying story of you losing the house keys adds a neat flow to the entire post. Also reminded me of John Krakauer’s Into Thin Air, where he describes how it took so much out of people who trained to climb Everest but were forced to give up right as they were approaching the peak purely due to bad weather. It is harsh to work so hard for something and to see it fall apart in front of your eyes. And it takes real courage to surrender, real courage to acknowledge that it’s the right time to quit. Because if one doesn’t quit at the right time, then one may incur even greater damage (aka losing a limb atop the Everest).
Kudos on your book deal!