I’m Feeling…
An exercise in understanding

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Exhausted
From always forging ahead despite the difficulty
From piling guilt and stress on myself while shielding others
But strong enough to continue the fight
Tired
From trying to please everyone else and disregarding myself
Of fighting myself on when I should take care of others, or of myself
But learning how to use my energy more wisely
Sad
That I haven’t been the best person I intended to be
For hurting those closest to me, often without realizing it
But happy I can see now and be more nurturing
Angry
I can’t focus and take control of my life, or let go of what weighs me down
That I’ve let myself get this bad emotionally
But know I can let go of what I cannot control to stop the struggle
Happy
I have all that I do and am capable of being all I want to be
That I’ve realized I’ve been fooling myself for so many years
But know it will take immense effort to come back from the abyss
Awake
To the toll it’s taking on me and that now is the time to act
To see all those around me in a brand new light, good or bad
But worried I’ll go back to sleep because I don’t want to accept it all
Frustrated
That every time I try to move towards new goals, I slowly lose traction
Because others support my wrong paths without question
But understand they would not be friends or family if they tried to stop me
Discouraged
When I give up or lose interest, letting myself down
When I inevitably let them all down again
But somehow pick myself back up and keep walking despite the pain
Motivated
To try and do better, for me
To see myself in a way that makes me proud
But still need to figure out what that all really means
