I’m Feeling…

An exercise in understanding

James D Nelson
Aug 22, 2017 · 2 min read

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Exhausted

From always forging ahead despite the difficulty

From piling guilt and stress on myself while shielding others

But strong enough to continue the fight

Tired

From trying to please everyone else and disregarding myself

Of fighting myself on when I should take care of others, or of myself

But learning how to use my energy more wisely

Sad

That I haven’t been the best person I intended to be

For hurting those closest to me, often without realizing it

But happy I can see now and be more nurturing

Angry

I can’t focus and take control of my life, or let go of what weighs me down

That I’ve let myself get this bad emotionally

But know I can let go of what I cannot control to stop the struggle

Happy

I have all that I do and am capable of being all I want to be

That I’ve realized I’ve been fooling myself for so many years

But know it will take immense effort to come back from the abyss

Awake

To the toll it’s taking on me and that now is the time to act

To see all those around me in a brand new light, good or bad

But worried I’ll go back to sleep because I don’t want to accept it all

Frustrated

That every time I try to move towards new goals, I slowly lose traction

Because others support my wrong paths without question

But understand they would not be friends or family if they tried to stop me

Discouraged

When I give up or lose interest, letting myself down

When I inevitably let them all down again

But somehow pick myself back up and keep walking despite the pain

Motivated

To try and do better, for me

To see myself in a way that makes me proud

But still need to figure out what that all really means

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James D Nelson

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On a journey to find out where I belong, learning to finally express myself in ways I have always suppressed, and living into what it means to evolve.

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