Dang what a story. This really resonated with me from two moments I had like this in my life the first was on the suicidal end of not wanting to die but struggling with the immeasurable burden of living and the second event five years later of being down in the doldrums again (but not suicidal this time just struggling with the weight of an immovable feeling) and I heard this sort of voice as well and it was a turning point in my life. Don't know what that was but it changed everything. Great story