Some old poems ..
So when I would get emotional I would create poetry. It is by no means Longfellow. But some of it is pretty good.
Judge for yourself below!
People Push (date unkown) Author James H Lewis II
People push me
Tell me to be quiet
Yet they don’t..
See what they ask
is to silence me
I go into the world with my soul on my side
But as I travel it is often from myself hide.
I hurt yet can’t cry outloud
I am angry but can’t stop the crowd
I am lost but I can be seen
It is the mask I’m behind is killing me
I smile and laugh naturally
I pout and mope unintentionally
But there is a time when
All I do is never ever me
Peope around me hide you see
But I can tell what they say
Is not really what it should be
Because of my state of depressed reality.
Girl Next Door
Girl of mystery
Girl next door
When did she move next to me
Havent I seen her before
Witty and sparkling
Her nature is sure
My dog keeps barking
Girl next door
She wont say hi to me
Maybe she is more
Beauty and what could be
Girl next door
Passion burning me like fire
Can I excape the simple desires
I want to run from the easy thing
I want to create the real meaning
Simple and mixed the thoughts together
Passion the fuel to burn whatever
Rationale is exscaping my fevered grasps
Emotion is burning I just hope to last
Where I am welcomed I can not go
Repeat the same crimes I would I know
Passions and intimate fellings and wantings
Will these thoughts be forever haunting
Ghosts of past passions shared
Desires burning my flesh in bed
Finding nothing with all the others
Only hoping to bond with another
My Own Prison
Rage the fire of my soul
Burn in me a permanent hole
One where emotions can not live
Empty me of this pain I have to give
Hollow dusts settle on my being
Marks my soul for extra cleaning
Could I empty this dirty place
I just want out of the emotions race
I cant find that place to run
Everywhere I go I am the one
Hide inside the walls so cold
But there is my fear until I'm old
In my death there is no release
For on my soul demons will feast
With the emotions I didnt share
Burned my soul for an eternity there
Wounded heart about to mend
Borrow strength from the well within
Can you use all that is there
And repair that open tear
Can you find the healing words
Can you get what you deserve
Will you make someone else to blame
Or will you kick this cursed thing
The burden that is yours alone
The ache that came and made a home
Pain that wretched your soul in two
Now with strength make yourself anew
You have now made your heart the best
Of what god gave me and put to a test
With this newly healed heart in me
Share it I will for all to see.
You are there again ..
in my minds eye..
you are there again everywhere I spy..
woman of shape without form..
where were you until now ..
how is it you are there ..
shapely and hinting ..
teasing me ..
what are you doing to my sanity..
what is it that you want from me..
haunting me in my dreams..
can I run .. it doesn’t seem..
your eyes are piercing into my soul ..
where do you hunt ..that you see me so..
what are you after .. name your prize
I am yours to keep ..
just walk in and have me at your feet..
but please get out of my private thoughts
you have not earned that sacred spot..
Be direct and walk on in..
let your pleasure with me truly begin..
can you handle what I got..