All my life I’ve lived in fear ,

Drinking alcohol and sniffing gear ,

Repeatedly thinking of taking my life,

Not giving a care for the kids or the wife ,

I always felt so alone ,

Now knowing just to pick up the phone ,

For many years making my wife ballistic ,

Yet out there was a fellowship so altruistic ,

Months went by with hesitation ,

Now only just getting into my meditation ,

I drop to the floor and kneel ,

I’ve handed over my life and my will ,

I don’t want a life filled with retribution ,

I just want depth and solution ,

I can’t sit alone in my head on my todd ,

My life is now in the care of God….