It’s been a wild ride so far and it’s starting to wear me down a bit because of how fast everything is moving.
Don’t get me wrong, I wouldn’t trade this experience for anything in the world.
It’s something my friend and I have been working towards for more than half our lives. I just need to manage my time, life, and expectations more efficiently or else I will burn myself out like I have done many times in the past.
And I get so much anxiety when people depend on me. When people ask me for favors especially if I can’t help them out.
I somehow take on the stress of their problems and make them my own.
In a way, I feel way worse because I know I can’t help them out.
It’s a never-ending cycle that has been haunting me for a long time now.
Do you know how some people talk about retiring and living on a farm in the middle of nowhere where it’s peaceful?
I feel like that at times.
Or doing something less drastic like changing my phone number and email address so no one can reach me.
I just need to manage everything, including my mental and physical health, better.