For anyone who’s asked, “What’s my purpose?”

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Moment of transparency — I’ve experienced confusion about what my purpose should be.

In the perfect world, I’d like to wake up one day with a handwritten note from Jesus himself with directions confirming my every move. But in the real world, I have to feel my way through. I have to be attentive to his Spirit and be willing to move when he says move.

For all the control freaks and planners, experiencing life on a “whim” is the opposite of how you like to live, but the fruit is so sweet when we move in faith.

Being flexible to flowing in the Spirit — or moving in faith — has some great benefits:

  • It exposes us to opportunities we may not have thought…


Just kidding. But these affirmations will help you stay positive during your search.

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Does anyone else feel overworked looking for a job? Please say it’s not just me.

This is the longest period I’ve been unemployed since college, and if you’re like me, you are not ok. Well, you probably are ok, but you don’t always feel ok.

It’s a good thing that feelings aren’t facts.

Creating affirmations has forced my attention into a more positive line of thinking. In general, these mini pep talks hype me up enough to do what I didn’t think could be done and to believe better than my brain initially wants. Affirmations aren’t magic spells. …


Thoughts on gentrification in NYC

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To My Love,

Before I met you, I always assumed I’d find love in Harlem. It’s where I always wanted to be. I don’t say this to make you jealous. I actually mean it as a compliment.

When I moved to New York, suitcases and bright eyes in tow, I couldn’t help but be drawn to you. Your vibe was different, more magnetic than anything I’d ever experienced.

You overflow with wisdom from different lands. You bear the hear and soul of what the City’s all about. The hustle, the swag, the creative edge, that’s all you, boo. It’s been you. …


I’m ready to feel another emotion besides stress.

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Finding joy in the middle of a struggle should be considered a superpower. Especially now. It’s been hard for me to roll out of bed each day and live the same day over and over and over again.

I haven’t worked since March, making the longest stint of unemployment in my adult-life, and the ending is nowhere in sight.

I caught myself on a downhill emotional slide the other week — late nights, lunchtime “mornings”, disregarding my need for outside — all signs that I needed to pull it together.

I understand mental wellness is a journey with peaks and valleys, so I’m not being hard on myself. I do, however, want to maintain the progress I’ve been making by actively resisting negative thoughts. …


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My heart was set on Harlem. I pictured life uptown having the same vibrancy as its Renaissance days, the streets teeming with art and music and poetry spots. I envisioned myself in a spacious studio apartment flooded with natural light and a bookcase whose contents stretched toward the ceiling. The bay window I dreamed of would be my favorite place to read and write, and I would curl up with a mug of something warm and sweet while peering at the bustling scene below.

Undoubtedly, there’d be a guy trying to get a beautiful stranger’s number. Though unsuccessful, he would not be dismayed. In fact, he would bounce back quickly from the disappointment in time to catch the next object of his affection that floated by.


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“Keep his mind off the most elementary duties by directing it to the most advanced and spiritual ones. Aggravate that most useful human characteristic, the honor and neglect of the obvious.”

This quote from “The Screwtape Letters” (C.S. Lewis) resonates too well right now. In the book, it’s written as an instruction from a demon to his nephew advising ways to disrupt a man from following Jesus.⠀

But even on a natural level, the idea of neglecting the most elementary duties (human decency) and ignoring obvious problems is, well, a problem.⠀

This [season] has been a crucible of sorts, a testing and exposing of character, a definitive line drawn in the sand for those on the side of humanity and those who are not.⠀ …


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In the thick of a challenge, if you’re like me, you talk to yourself: “You’ve got this,” “Get it together,” “You just need to try a little harder.” Sometimes, the pep talks are the fire you need to keep pressing. Other times, you roll over in defeat and promise yourself that the next time things will be better.

But how do we know things will really get better? This is where faith comes in. FAITH IS COMPLETE TRUST OR CONFIDENCE IN SOMEONE OR SOMETHING. Spiritually speaking, it’s fueled by an understanding of God’s character and his love for us. (Galatians 5:6, kjv) And all you need is a little bit, a mustard seed if you will, to plant and nurture for your faith to grow. …


Aren’t you tired of listening to its lies?

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This is for anyone who’s ever doubted themselves, even if only for a second.⠀

Please stop making room for fear.⠀

I’m talking to myself too. There have been times when I’ve second-guessed my abilities and things I knew to be true because of fear, and it’s never turned out in my favor.⠀

I know fear can seem so ruthless with its accusations of your nothingness and its attempts to keep you small, but know that fear is nothing more than a fraud. …


Megan Thee Stallion is proof we should put ourselves first

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By now you should know about Megan Thee Stallion. She’s been held a hero, a whore, and a snitch within the past few weeks.

Following reports of a violent incident involving Megan and Rapper Tory Lanez, social media feeds have been in shambles speculating about what really went down.

After Megan revealed her truth on IG live — that she was shot in the foot by Lanez following an argument — the most ridiculous thing happened. People got mad at Megan.

I should not have been so surprised. We are, after all, living in a patriarchal society. We always need “the full story” or “to hear both sides” before believing the word of a woman over a man, but there are plenty articles about that already. …


And now I’m learning how to love myself first.

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I experienced my first heartbreak in 2nd grade. To set the scene, the year was ’97. Information was passed through origami-style notes and a game of Telephone. Someone blabbed to my crush that I liked him. A friend was exposed for liking him too. I imagine a note passed between the three of us to determine our fate. Would he check the box professing his love for me or what?

Being the kind soul that he was, my crush couldn’t bear to choose who he liked more. …

About

Janell Marie

Writer at heart. Hospitality leader by trade. New Posts MWF • Affirmations on Monday. Anything goes the other days • Twitter: @janellmt

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