Hopefully your case is part of medical training because Aaaaargh!
This just shouldn’t have happened…
That joke about Einstein and God, where he points out a mistake in the formula for life the universe and everything… well this was it - at least as far as evolution of humane species is concerned. :-(
Imagine for a second a world where conception had depended on pleasure, on joy - and couldn’t ever happen in presence of fear, pain, suffering.
What sort of people would we be?