Discoveries

I feel like there’s definitely been a lot of realizations about myself. I’m not sure if they’re all entirely true…but a lot of it makes sense.

I put in a lot less in relationships with others than I think. I’ve always thought that I at least give the same amount in relationships with others that they give to me (this is true in some situations), but lately I’ve begun to notice that people make a lot of the plans to hang out instead of me. Even if I say I want to hang out with them first, rarely do I actually make those plans myself. Also, when I say I feel left out…it’s my fault. I should be putting myself out there and making an effort instead of waiting for someone to start something with me.

I don’t believe that you have to be categorized as “outgoing” to be outgoing. People have many different personalities that show at different times depending on what’s going on with them. And I think my mentality a lot of the times is that people don’t want to be around me because I might be boring or that people are closer to each other than they are to me. But that shouldn’t stop me from reaching out! I know why it seems easier to me to reach out to lonely or quiet people. Because they don’t give seem like they have it all together. They seem like they need attention (even if they don’t, it’s just what I think when I see them).

Anyways, I just want to put myself out there more and not care what other people think. But I also want to watch what I say because sometimes I can be a little too blunt. I should also not constantly be around the same group of friends, but make sure I set apart time during the week to be in community with them. I need to live life with others by not only talking to them, but experiencing it with them. Things like going to support them at a sporting event, hanging out with their circle of friends, and even meeting their family has the potential to bring you so much closer to understanding others. I think following through with these actions would show a person you care about them 10x more than you just asking them about it.

How else do you make memories? ☺

Oh and one more thing…I’ve also realized that a lot of the people who I’m close to now and who has been vulnerable to me wasn’t because of anything I said or did. It’s because they simply chose to open up to me. I think I get discouraged really easily when I feel like someone doesn’t want to tell me what’s going on or want to open up to me, but honestly, not everyone I’m going to meet is going to have me as one of their go-to people just because I ask them. I believe that people have their own community and I shouldn’t take it personally if they don’t want to share something. As long as they have someone to talk to…☺