I just realized I’m a yuppie, and I don’t know how to feel about it

“I really don’t understand how people can still eat that shit,” I uttered. Then I thought about it.

“Ohmygod… That was some privileged, middle class bullshit. I can’t believe I just said that.”

Steph giggled, “Yeah, it was.”

She works in a diabetes prevention and education unit, and we were discussing McDonald’s, or high fructose corn syrup, or some other poisonous food-like substance when I spat that entitled, snooty-booty sentence from my mouth. How mortifying! Generally, I fancy myself as “aware” and “educated” on social justice issues and disparities, so how could I say something like that?

I didn’t grow up rich, but both of my parents own property, so I always had shelter. We may not have eaten what I wanted, but we always had food — including McDonald’s. Sometimes the utilities got cut off, but they were always restored within hours.

Mom’s house

When I discuss my life’s trajectory, I often reference living “one street away from being an entirely different person”. In the north section of my neighborhood, the kids attended Oklahoma City Public Schools, a less affluent school district than my precious, Caucasian-laden, middle class Mid-Del. If things in my life had lined up just a little differently, I could fit snugly into many of the stereotypes and negative statistics that plague my community today. I got to go to leadership camps, do after school activities, hang out at bonfires with the rich kids, blahblahblah. I was never one of the students that got to drive a brand new Hummer to school, but I was smart and a “non-threatening black”, so I had decent access to stuff.

Lady Luck touched me again when it was time for college because I got to leave Oklahoma — something few of my peers could, or even desired to, do. I earned my free education, joined a sorority, and did all sorts of typical college kid stuff like going on Spring Break trips with my friends, and even a couple of paid internships. After college, I moved back home to work for the school district I’d avoided narrowly. Now, I’m an AmeriCorps VISTA, living in “poverty” on food stamps and helping people in Austin gain access to literacy education. If that whole life story ain’t some entitled, yuppie bullshit, then what is?

Delta Sigma Theta Sorority, Inc., Gamma Tau Chapter — all of my line sisters and me

It’s important to me to “give back”. Since I was a kid, I’ve been involved in various community programs with my dad, a tradition that continued in college, and now into adulthood. It’s also important to realize that the only thing that separates me from the people I’m serving is circumstance. I recognize that if several factors in my life had happened only marginally differently, I could have been considerably less fortunate. I still can be out on the street if I miss rent next month in this obscenely high Austin housing market.

This most recent instance of me embarrassing myself is a reminder that we should always recognize our privilege and good luck in this life. On paper — as a black woman — I’m disenfranchised and marginalized in several ways. However, my first car was beat up old Lexus, I have a free undergraduate degree from one of the top HBCUs in the nation, I have shelter and food every day, and I’m a poor national service volunteer by choice — I’m still a little privileged.

My first outreach event as a VISTA for the Literacy Coalition.

So of course people still eat that shit, Jasmyne. Even if some people are aware of the health detriments of GMOs, fast food and pesticides, it doesn’t mean that they can afford your fancy organic produce. Hell, the only reason you can afford it is because the Sustainable Food Center has a “double dollar” program for food stamp beneficiaries. So check yourself, and your privilege.

Originally published at jasmynegilbert.com on July 6, 2015.

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