Day 10–15: Getting Through the Mini Hurdle

Its been 5 days since I last wrote. I guess you can tell a lot happened. Biggest presentation for our company and of course, trying to handle everything while maintaining my composure. All in all though, I am on the start of a new week now and I got through it. It was a dreary week that was filled with heart wrenching insecurity and mind numbing thought.

Now that I’m on the other side of it, or as far as I can be in five days I can say I’m proud. On Wednesday, Ron and I marched into the LA company and gave the best presentation we ever gave. It was amazing. After weeks of preparation, I stood there proudly showing off the bright colors and complicated campaigns I planned out. I wasn’t scared, I was really into it. I compare it to like a big test or presentation I’ve given in the past. I know my material and I’m confident in what I have to offer. The internal marketing director was even there and Ron tells me she and the head product manager looked mightily impressed. I walked out of there knowing we would not get this account, but I gained the confidence knowing that I could pitch to any company and feel extremely confident. Weird huh, to go in wanting to get the sale and to walk out completely zen knowing you didn’t. We might get some design jobs in the next weeks from them, but Ron and I are taking it with some caution, because I think we both know its probably not going to go anywhere.

Saying all of that, I gained a ton of confidence. Screw the age or looks factor. I gave a dang good presentation. I did it despite having personal issues hang over me and I didn’t let it stop me. I’ve gone back to work today again and today was great as well. Got the job done, despite some slow internet. Confident and proud of what I’m doing. Of course, always vulnerable because we are just starting out, but I know we’ll get there. Time is the factor I don’t know, but I’ll get there.