Be brave. Burst it. Pop your ego. Empty your cup and look for water. That first drink won’t taste good. You might spit it out. But that’s ego, that is your certainty trying to protect itself. Drink deep. You don’t know what you know. More importantly, you don’t know what you DON’T know. Get over it. If your ego was right you would not desire more, you wouldn’t be searching, or asking. You would know. Everything. And you don’t.
Change your attitude. Unfuck your head. Make an honest, unsentimental accounting of your present condition. Prepare to be disappointed. Define what you want instead, clearly. By clear I mean precise, and feasible. An unrealistic objective is sure to sabotage the process. Hit the books. Try and err. Inquire. Risk. Mimic. Insist. Resist.