I’ve been diagnosed…

With a bad case of anxiety. I can’t even eat my lunch without my thought of a million things to do. It leaves a bad taste in my mouth and my food no longer has its flavor. All I want to do is cuddle up in bed, shut the windows and close the lights. Perhaps, I’m overreacting to the fact that my tiny problems, aren’t so bad after all — never to escalate into bigger ones.

I worry…If my commute to work will consist of me sitting in traffic for a long period of time…When a loved one is sick and the doctors can’t do anything about it.

Maybe its just me — just a bad case of the blues, I guess.

Although this blog may have sounded like I pity party (haha), I do want to share my days of both ups and downs, and somehow see the life lesson of it all.

This evening, I came across Philippians 4:8 in my devotional and it hit home.

“Whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable — if anything is excellent or praiseworthy-think about such things.”

I had to look back on the reasons of worrying or building fear in my heart, and it was for no good reason at all! It’s ok to feel concern, but not so much as to have it consume your entire day, your soul, your thoughts.

This verse helped me get through my day, reflecting on the goodness of God and trusting in His love, His words…I must be thankful in ALL things. Despite the outcome I THINK is going to happen, I must immediately lift it up to God.