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One of the hardest things over the last eight months of really diving in and dealing with mental health, addiction, trying to figure out why things became the way that they became was understanding that, in spite of the fact that I had a capacity to see life as an absolutely incredibly beautiful thing and having the capacity to experience unbelievable gratitude, joy and love, there’s always this overhanging shadow in my life that life was fundamentally a futile, pointless fucking tragedy.

And here’s the thing about that.

I’m looking at that as recognizing, “that’s not true” and that’s not how I want to live my life, but that’s not a belief that was just, I woke up one day and said, “hey, let’s look at life in the most bleakest form that we possibly can. …

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Since my New Year’s Day video about quitting drinking, people have been asking me how I’m doing so here’s an update and some thoughts.

But, first, a warning…

I have bad news.

Most of you are probably not going to like some of what I have to say. That’s okay. I need to and I’m going to say it anyways.

As of today, it’s been 5 weeks and no booze.

Non. Zero. Not even a single drop. That’s a big deal for me and something that, 6 weeks ago, I never would have thought would happen.

Yes, those bottles are full. …

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December 25, 2018 was the last time I drank. I’m not sure if it will be forever but I am sure I am done for a long time.

The thought of alcohol taking over in such a way that I could not stop by my own will always scared me. …


Jay Woodford

Married Jill in 90 days. 4 kids in 5 years. Hustling since age 5. Dead serious & stupidly childish.

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