DJ 010 — Fear, pt. 1
For most of human history, we were exposed to physical threats constantly...Now, rather than worrying about being killed by a tiger, you’re worried about your self-esteem. You’re worried about what people think about you. You’re worried about not being good enough. You’re worried about offending other people. You’re worried about failing.
Admittedly, I’ve been guilty of worrying about everything listed above.
- In worrying about my self-esteem and what people thought of me, especially in my childhood, I would rarely speak my mind and keep to myself
- In worrying about not being good enough, I constantly compared myself to others
- In worrying about offending other people, again, too many times to count I held my tongue
- In worrying about failing, the constant internal chatter of “what if” statements kept me stagnant
This is in large part why I started this daily journal, to do something everyday that scares me everyday. Putting myself out there, expressing myself has always terrified me, especially online for the world to see. 10 days in and part of me is still uncomfortable with doing this. Well, no more. It is just as Hardy explains,
Spirituality begins outside your comfort zone. The essence of living — of being truly alive — is to directly expose yourself to what you fear.
For that reason, Imma keep it pushing.