Jeannie Parker
Sep 8, 2018 · 1 min read

I hate Joel Osteen and his too wide, ever present, fake smile.

Now that I’ve gotten that out of my system I’ll make my real comment.

Also a warning that I will discuss my own suicidal ideation.

I also live with suicidal ideation and suicidal depression. Looking back I think I’ve always lived with it, at least as long as I can remember. (Being 8 and lying in my bed wishing I could die.)

But when I let myself be vulnerable enough to confess this, when I’m at my lowest and I need love and support, I get threats of hospitalization. As if locking me in a room where I can’t hurt myself will make those feelings go away. Even my therapist came unglued. I don’t mention it to her anymore. Truly I have plenty of other issues that she’s great at helping me to work through.

I loved the way you spoke about this reality. We need understanding not fear. We need love not isolation.

Thank you.

And thank you for opening my eyes as to how I can help others around me.

Ann

Jeannie Parker

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Writing about life, love and the pursuit of sanity, so I don’t go crazy. Romance author, Mom, and mixed orientation marriage survivor. jeanniewparker@gmail.com