Before the journey of a thousand miles begins, check the condition of your shoes. Your concerns are understandable. Listen to yourself (take that as an instruction) are you saying what you genuinely feel or repeating what you have heard? Whatever you want to accomplish is valid, and I encourage you to plot a course of action. Take yourself seriously, if you think you should study more then do it but make it interesting, make it fun. Be loving to yourself. Speak to yourself as if you are a guide and one person is relying on you. Writing is an excellent way to explore the amazing world within and outside of us.