Thank you, Pete. Your reply appeared as a message on my phone and has not yet appeared in Medium, sounds odd, anyway, you nailed it. For three days now I have been wrestling with past patterns and a growing discomfort with those, all too friendly, negative emotions and visualizations. You never know what is going to knock you on your butt. The real kicker is, I invited it. I am at a choosing point. What direction will help create a new reality within this patterned universe. One thing I am certain of, I will discover what I seek.