He is not strong enough to manage what he thinks he can manage. He can’t control the craving for alcohol. Alcohol is a powerful sustance that makes some people strongly dependant. The funny thing is that he hates feeling that someone is bossing him, but the truth is that alcohol is what somehow manages part of his daily activity. Even if I am not present, I know when he doesn’t drink, which actually is very rare, but I know it, because then he needs to contact me as every normal lover does. But those days are really very few, one or two in a month maximum. The rest of the days I am just hidden somewhere and he only needs to feel his jar or glass.

This is one of the thing I can’t tell openly to anyone.