21 to Life
When I look around me, I can’t help but think that I am supposed to have my life together. I am supposed to have a job and go to school and be financially comfortable.
But in reality, I am not even close. I have debt, I don’t have a job, I have no friends, and I am sad all the time. I was told by numerous people that moving out would be difficult and something I would have to work on. AT the time I thought they were all just trying to scare me, I was wrong. Even though every day is terrifying, it is extremely difficult to be living right now.
Moving to a big new city that I said in the past that I would never move to, is scary, and expensive. I still don’t know if I made the right decision for my life, but I feel like if I didn’t, I would still be living in my parent’s basement, working at a job that I loved full-time.
Maybe this was the push that I needed to get out into the world and start living my life. But yet, I have this feeling like I am doing it all wrong. Admittedly, this isn’t the way I planned to live my life. I was going to move out in the city that I grew up in, and go to school. But now why would I move out of my house and pay rent and go to school?
I took moving to a new city as a new adventure and basically, I just jumped in with both feet. Now thinking about it though, and what I am currently doing with my life, I feel stuck, again.
I feel like I am not moving towards anything, I am broke, no job, no friends. The only thing I have to look forward to is going back to school in September, which is a month away. Every day I feel like I haven’t done anything to better myself. I could have been making money or writing.
So that is why I am writing this. I have nothing else to do with my life, so why not do what I want to make a career out of? I am going to school for it after all. So here is day one. Let’s hope I stick with it.
