How To Go From Fear To Freedom
A Year Ago Today I Shared My First YouTube Video With The World.
I shared my truth honestly and cried and shook on camera and then pressed share on a website.
It was terrifying. All of the fears and feelings that I shared were SO very real to me then. Now the pain of those fears that held me back is truly nothing but a distant memory.
May all Your Fears turn into Freedom ❤
A year ago this was my truth: “Warning: Vulnerability ahead…
The desire to not be flawed, to not have imperfections, to not have fears, to not have traumas, to not have pain is simply ridiculous.
It is holding us back from action. It is holding us back from connection. It is holding us back from fulfilling our purpose.
The wounds we have are meant to be entered.
The Fears We Have Are Meant to Be Experienced.
We are supposed to feel them and move through them, Embrace them & Expose them.
Don’t downplay or diminish your fear in the light of other people’s suffering. Don’t try to bargain with it or change it. Reason has no seat in the council of understanding fear. Whatever your fear may be, it is valid. We ought not belittle our own fears in comparison to the weight of others’ fears.
For me, it was a fear of putting myself in front of a camera… confronting my appearance, my judgments, my insecurities, my ego, my perfectionism, and my wounded child… AND showing that to all of you.
It may look small to someone else, but to me… the act of recording myself and sharing it feels like the hardest thing in the world to do.
I know for a while now you’ve been seeing my posts, (yes there were tons of fears I had to beat through in order to do those also) and maybe think “what’s the difference in writing verse videos?”
I see my writing as just moments of ideas that flew through me. They are not me.
I see my body as something I just happen to be living through right now. It is not me…
This realization is one I truly do believe to be true.
But still, the face that I look into the mirror and see each day stares back at me with sticky attachment and stories each day.
I had many years of bad programming and debilitating beliefs about my appearance. It started from a trauma when I was a kid and only got worse with time. My beliefs of having something “wrong with me” and me “not being good enough” led me to years of anxiety, eating disorders, drug use, and depression.
So to stand in front of a camera for the world to stare back at me and to openly discuss my fears publicly is absolutely my worst nightmare.
But I did what I feared the most because I believe that our fear serves a purpose…
Our fears may seem entirely irrational but maybe that’s because we’re not utilizing them.
Fear doesn’t say “turn around and run away” it says “come towards me and charge!”
Fear shows us the places we need to go.
That is exactly what I explain in this video.
Through my very visible tears and sweat on camera I invite you to watch me break through some of my fears and find freedom in real time.
None of it was rehearsed, none of it was planned… I just pressed play. And what you see is what flowed out of me.
I hope it may inspire you to do something you’ve been holding yourself back from doing.
If you choose to be vulnerable and let it out you will see that in the process of freeing yourself you may help inspire others to find their freedom from their fears as well.
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