Nine

My two week break without antidepressant medication.

Thoughts, emotions, there are none. I am just numb.

The only thing I really feel is tired. I cried for hours last night until there was nothing left of me. I know I need to get up, do, think, take charge but I don’t know how. There seems to be a brick wall in front of me, so high and so close that I can’t grasp a way over it. The future, if there is one, is on the other side of that wall. I keep getting up and running head on into it and falling back down without ever making any progress.