Waking up — Oh yes I remember that bit. I was distraught but I’d taken so many pills I was unable to move. I screamed and howled inwardly, soaking my pillow with silent tears at the unfairness of it all. I’d just wanted all the crap to STOP and the decision had been taken from me, just like every other aspect of my life at this point in time. I hadn’t even been in control of my own death.

I’m glad you’ve found yourself at peace.. I am still in purgatory.