I Accidentally Fell in Love With Someone Else
And it was the best thing that ever happened to me
I never saw it coming, even though I probably should have. Things have gotten so bad with us lately. I suppose it was only a matter of time before it would come to this. Even so, I still feel a mixture of awful and grateful for it.
I am not sure why I am allowing myself to feel so guilty. I have tried justifying it by reminding myself that at least we aren’t married. In fact, it was for fear that I would find myself in this position that I have been so insistent about not getting married again. After so many years together, I can’t say this feels any different, though.
We have changed so much — in some ways for the better, but largely not. At least not together, anyway. Each day, it feels as though the distance and tension between us grows and with the constant snapping at me, each biting comment has chewed away at my heart where my love for him once resided. I seemingly disappeared slowly as he scrolled endlessly through his phone seeking something to hold his attention — never me.
I found myself trying to fight for us, but it takes two and it felt as though each punch I threw was swung in an empty room, never connecting.
