I was assigned female at birth. Most people would say I was “female socialized”. That’s not quite true. I did get some of the browbeating and undermining that cis girls frequently get. I did lose some of the confidence I might have had if I had been, specifically, a cis boy who was gender conforming. I tend to think before I talk. I feel uncomfortable cutting people off verbally. I carry with me a fear of being attacked or brutalized by men, to an extent.
Gender Socialization is Real (Complex)
Devon Price
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This, and the next two paragraphs, really spoke to me. I’m cis, or at least mostly so, but sometimes I feel like I was so bad at internalizing female gender norms that it doesn’t entirely matter. Between having ADHD and being smarter-than-was-acceptable-for-a-woman in my small town, I could never meet the standards for “being a girl”, and I didn’t think a lot of them made sense anyway, so I rejected them and sort of went with “well, guess my version of girl is like this.

Ten years later, I might have known about nonbinary as an identity before I was solidified as myself and it’d have made sense for me,