Goodbye

Tonight is the night! It is time for me to feel your fire race through my veins. I keep telling myself, “This is the night that we say goodbye. This is the night where I make you go, never to return.”

You brush my arms slowly, giving me chills. You wait a moment and I almost cry out. The moment you’re in me, my heart begins to pound and my entire body begins to tingle. “Thank you, thank you, thank you!”, I cry out, throwing my head back in pleasure.

I look over at him and he is smiling, eyes sparkling. He comes to me and grabs my shoulders, turns me around, and kisses me with a passion that only you can bring.

I am immediately wet, moaning for him to be inside me, but he says, “Wait!” His hands crawl up my shirt and gently caress my breasts, focusing on my ultra sensitive nipples. They harden under his gentle touch as I shudder involuntarily in response. The heat between my thighs begins to grow, racing up to the top of my head. The sensations in my body begin to unravel me. My breath catches in my throat, my eyes dilate, and then I begin to tremble with ecstasy. I scream, “Oh my God, Oh my God!”

He looks at me and lowers me onto the bed. He starts kissing me all over, his hands roaming to places that make me cry out in amazement. Softly, urgently I whisper, “More! Dear God more!”

He runs his hand down my milky white belly, continuing down, until his fingers brush that place that makes me arch my back and shudder all the way to my toes.

Finally he stands. Looking down at me with a soft expression, he says, “I love you Jenny. I love you more than you will ever know.” I look up at him with a look of confusion and quietly I say, “Thomas, I know you love me. I love you too.” He sees the concern in my eyes and feels the panic radiating off my body. After a long moment he sits down next to me and with tears streaming down his face, he chokes out, “Jenny, this is it. I can’t continue to do this. Not like this. She is taking you from me right before my eyes.”

All of a sudden my mind is going a million miles an hour and my heart is beating so fast that I am afraid it’s going to come out of my chest. A sense of terror washes over me and I reach out for him. He backs away, out of my reach. I beg him, screaming, “Thomas, I promise I won’t see her again! I swear! Please don’t leave me!” He just looks at me with the saddest look I have ever seen on his beautiful face. I can’t stand the silence as tears threaten to fall, so with a strangled cry I manage to say, “Thomas, I love you more than I have ever loved her. I need you. You are my world!” His eyes look distant and very softly he whispers, “We’ve been here before and you stayed away from her, yet she was never far from your mind, so here we are again. I can’t do this anymore. I know you love me, but I am certain you love her more.” He drops his head into his hands and sobs.

Listening to him cry is almost enough to kill me. I think to myself, “How did I let this happen again? I thought I had let her go!” Somewhere, deep in my heart, when I called for her, I knew he would leave, but the reality of it happening now is unbearable. “I did this!! I did this! You stupid, selfish, piece of worthless shit girl! I did this.”, I scream to myself. When I open my eyes from the outburst in my head, he is gone.

I run to the door hoping he is still here, but I am too late. He’s gone. He’s really gone. My hands, pressed to the glass door, leave streaks as I fall to my knees, broken and crying. I cry for me, for him, for what I’ve done. My heart shatters into a million pieces and it hurts like nothing I have ever felt. I only know one way to make it stop, so I reach for her beautiful numbness once more.