Oh my God! I understand fear in a lot of ways , but this. This is like being under water, unable to breath and not knowing if you will reach fresh air again. The defense attorney has me plain fucking rattled. He is being up stuff that is not relevant to this case. The State keeps objecting. He asked if I had children and if the resided with me. He brought up my medical history. Wtf!!!!! How did he get some of it? The objection to that one was sustained. He was looking at me laughing while I repeated what happened on March 13th, 2016. Laughing. It was fucking humiliating. I could not look up to answer questions for fear of everyone in the courtroom seeing the shame, embarrassment, and total terror etched across my face. Ok and it’s my turn again. I don’t think I can do much more.