I’d love to engage with you in a meaningful discussion as you suggested was your thoughts behind writing the post. I’m a follower of Jesus who has had similar conversations with myself as the ones you propose. I’ve continued in my search and found what I believe is true hope. My starting point differs from yours because it’s not about what we’ve done wrong but who God is. I disagree with the premise of many of your arguments but my question would be, “are you honestly interested in the search or just having a go at what you’ve perceived to be ‘custard’”. I think you raise some good questions that deserve answers.