Thank you for sharing. I also create idealistic, fantastical conversations and situations only to be disappointed over and over. I can’t help but get my hopes up that maybe, this time, the interaction will be different. Could be with a family member, boyfriend, etc. Someone once told me that to do the same thing over again and expect a different result is stupidity.. well, he was an asshole. I remain hopeful, but I also respect you sharing and your story.