Hurdle

I find that as time goes on, I do not know myself as well as I think I do. I have a problem. This problem is I suck at sticking with things. If you read what I write you know I have said this before. Now that the new year motivation high is gone and the grind is on, I start wanting to give up. When I should really keep going.

The goal is to learn Korean. Now it is more specific than this, but the overall goal is to learn how to speak it at a competent level. I been wanting to do this since the summer of 2013. To think where I would be at if I just stuck with it. The thing is, once it gets tough, my mind tries to tell me I am not doing the right thing and should do something else.

So what happens is I quit. Another year goes by and I try again, continuing the vicious cycle. This hurdle can drive a person crazy and I know I am not the only person that struggles with this. Having so many interests that I forget to put first things first. Always wondering if I am doing the right thing.

This is much simpler than I make it out to be, but I still struggle with it and have been struggling with such thoughts for a long time. I have decided even with these thoughts I may have on the rough days, I must continue. This hurdle is not impossible to get over. All I can do is stick with it, trusting the process. Knowing that one day it will all be worth it.

If you find yourself with the same thoughts, just commit to something for a year. Especially if it is a goal you have been wanting to accomplish for a long time. Put aside interests that are not as important at the moment and go all in on this goal.

By going focused in on an interest and getting good at it, more can come from it. Instead of wasting my time and energy on things that I find interesting but at the moment are not important.

One day at a time, its my favorite saying. I do not know how I will feel tomorrow or a week from now. What I do now is I can do something today to get closer to my goals. No rush, trust the process, and one day I will reap the benefits of hard work!