Jaded Jerellium
What is it? What was it called again?
Loom? Lamient? Livid?
Oh. Oh, no, it was love.
How I’ve grown to despise you, imbued with pious zeal and youth I pursued you. Along the path I forsook wisdom, slayed loyalty, and defaced honor. All in the name of you, love.
I am here! The light has finally reached the depths of my meloncholic heart. I left that somber dwelling reborn in the revelry of your deceit.
I am but a husk, a mere cloak, a safeguard for the dark as it wages its holy war with the light that seeks to set me free.
I’ve reached the precipice and now it has become clear. Despite my contempt for you and your devices it is apparent that you remain in both light and dark.
You ensnare all who cross you indiscriminate of our cyclical pleasantries.
The truth is, I don’t know what truth is.
To succumb to love and all its desires, what a thing to behold. I’m perplexed, the emotions ebb and flow washing over me faithfully. I’m temperamental, yes, but should I end a fantasy I’ve longed for since my adolescence?
Maybe I should have ended it there. Maybe in my youth is where these perversions belong. 情人,you’ll never understand how perfect I thought us to be together… at least in the moment.
Forgive me, for I have already crossed our delicately crafted line in my mind. Love, you insatiable goose, you leave me opaque harrowing in the wake of my carnality.
I hope to meet you again, in her eyes, but I’ll know deep down it is but a distortion. A lie I tell myself as I seek sanctuary from your impending siege. Love, I still remember, “what I seek, is seeking me”.
