Hi Austin! Thank you for sharing your story. I extend my love and understanding to what you have been going through, that is the doctrinal test of your faith in the Church. Mark 4, Jesus Christ taught in parables, hope you read the whole chapter. I’m a convert. Born and raised as Catholic. Been converted to the Church in 1989, and now almost 30 years still within the Church. To me, you can never find any Church just like the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, the restored Church here on earth today. I read many articles, even anti-Mormon literature, but they can never deter nor kill my testimony in the Church. I pray, that the attributes of Laman and Lemuel may not be upon you. That the truthfulness of the gospel and priesthood power and keys — are like diamonds, golds and pearls of great price — that they many not be thrown away to the ‘pig pens’. Questions of authenticity or validity of Joseph Smith’s election as a prophet of the Restoration, and the Book of Mormon narratives — are of individual efforts -seeking truthfulness, in prayer and fasting, and ‘bruised’ knees — to be enlightened as bright as the sparking sun. ‘Freedom’ outside the Church is ‘temporal’. Come back and let the love of Christ heal your soul. Amen.