Hey Brian, thanks for reaching out. I actually have not looked into prescription drugs (but if it’s helping you, please stick with it!). I didn’t have health insurance and couldn’t afford meds (or a therapist), but prescription treatment sounds like a worthy investment, I’m happy that you are on your way to recovery! Congrats :)
After I looked at my life from a birds-eye perspective, I saw it was more than alcohol I was struggling with. What I did instead was microdose on edibles (I know it sounds weird, but it’s cheap and I had access) so I started using weed as a way to become more contemplative while feeling less judgmental about myself, and was able to figure out what made me happy. (I live in California so the weed thing might not be a viable option for you :/)
Basically — my issues were still issues whether or not I was any kind of high, I began confronting them (while high and happy) and that’s what has made my addiction to anything less and less. I also went around asking strangers for advice (using them as my therapists) and overall it went pretty well. I’ve made a TON of mistakes over the last 6 months even after my self-realizations and have just swallowed my pride, told myself I can make mistakes, and kept on keeping on. :)
Whatever is working for you, I commend you on finding that avenue, and turning around in a week is f*cking incredible. It’s hard, and it will continue to be hard, but we all have to start somewhere.
“You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.” — Buddha