7/14/2015, 11:19AM

The weather feels slightly bipolar today. One minute, the rain is beating down so hard I could probably end up with a
bruise from dancing in it. The next, it is light out and damp and the air is sticky on my skin. After a quick run to the
bank, I decided that today is going to be a relaxation day. I’m going to go all out, folks. There will be painted nails
(poorly done because somehow I never learned how to Girl), a face mask from one of my favorite stores on this planet
(Lush…look it up…you will hate me for it because your wallets will be hurting afterwards, but you will love me because
it is a beauty store like none other), movies, Call of Duty…The works. I’m prepared for a day of pampering myself,
because why the fuck not.

I have a load of laundry going, so I am also being productive. I will probably end up playing my ukulele at some point.
Playing and singing is extremely therapeutic to me, even though my song choices are iffy a lot of the time. I really
enjoy taking songs that are really nowhere near meant to be played on that instrument, and turning them into something
super funky and cool. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. That’s the fun part! My ukulele feels great in my hands.
Some of my friends have asked me if I have given it a name… No. It is my instrument, and that is that. It creates
beautiful sounds and some not-so-beautiful sounds, but I love every single moment of it because it feels right to me.

Sometimes you just need a mental health day. I’m realizing that at this time in my life, I’ve been needing them a lot.
My emotions have been on high alert for the past month or so. It isn’t necessarily a bad thing. There definitely HAVE
been bad things happening, but I’m learning that focusing on those things is only going to make me miserable. Moving
on will serve to help me and make me a stronger person. The good things in my life right now are REALLY good. That is the
most important thing to focus on, because the power of happiness, health, love, friendship, compassion…All of those…
is so much greater than sadness, pain. I have ALWAYS felt the other way around about that. Whenever bad things have
happened to me before, those feelings of sadness and pain always felt much greater. This time is different… Happiness,
health, love, friendship, compassion…Those feelings are so much stronger and more powerful than the bad ones.

Oh my god. I’m an adult. Shit just got real.

I could expand more on this, but I’ll save mushy gushy things for a later time.

For now, it’s time to watch some shitty daytime television and stuff my face.