I Suffer from Creative Mania and Thoughts Overload!
I suffer from creative mania. If you suffer from it too then I don’t need to explain what it is. If you don’t, I want you to imagine times of never ending ideas about anything and everything filling your brain in cascades and tumbling over into a huge waterfall with powerful, crushing currents at the bottom. Being there, at the bottom of the 50,000 gallons of water falling per second, is how my brain feels when creative mania hits. It’s suffocating at times.
Thankfully, the creativity isn’t always so severe. Sometimes the cascades are enjoyable. However, the constant thoughts about new projects, ways to improve things, things to write, things to learn, things to teach my kids, new things — all the things — is still hard to manage. What do I focus on? Where do I put my energy? Frustrating too because I have limited time and energy for creative projects.
My days consist of monotonous and yet indispensable tasks. I have a big family (10 kids to be exact), I home-school several of those school-age kids, I have young children too. Feeding them, cleaning up, laundry, it’s all necessary and important daily work. There is room for some creativity, like in cooking. Cooking can be an art, sometimes. Certainly creativity in teaching them, but not always. Math is math, spelling isn’t always exciting, but there is flexibility and creative times.
Shaping and molding my children into good people is an art too in its own way. Children are an endless adventure!
Still, I have so many ideas left untouched and wonder what I should focus on with my limited time. Today I wanted to work on my children’s book I started a few weeks back, and also my prosphora devotional book I’ve been working on for two years now. I did manage to get a blog post up. I’ve considered some other writing projects that came to me today and made a meme with one of my daughter’s paintings. That’s just a bit of what was going on in my mind.
Having a busy mind of an INFJ (Myers-Briggs) is exhausting! I decided to write this quick Medium post to get some of these thoughts out and do something before trying to sleep. I wonder what new ideas tomorrow will bring!