“If you feel a knot in your stomach because you can see the enormous distance between your dreams and your daily reality, do one thing to tighten your grip on what you want.” -Elle Luna
Change is constant in our lives. It has a way of creeping up on us and taking us out of our comfort zone. There are unexpected twists and turns, and how we deal with it is up to us. Some people resist and run, while others flow with it and go along for the ride.
I’m riding the wave of change right now. I’m making the jump between careers and although it’s been a bumpy ride, I’ve come to develop a better relationship with myself. In those times where fear and vulnerability take over, I’ve learned to trust myself and become my own cheerleader. We may not be able to control the dominance change has over our lives, but at least we have the power to navigate through our journey.
When I observe change in a positive light, the possibilities are endless. Lately, I’ve been feeling inspired and brave enough to follow my dreams, even if I fail continuously. Before, I was working a full-time job as a legal assistant where I felt limited and highly stressed. I was writing a lot, but didn’t have freedom with my ideas. I knew I had so much potential, but because the pay was good and I was afraid of CHANGE, I kept making excuses to stick it out.
When I first started my career in the legal field, I thought that this was my calling and I would love it forever. I was highly disappointed and scared knowing I had invested 1 1/2 years of my life into a career I was falling out of love with everyday. After many internal battles and crying nights, I decided to give my month’s notice and quit my job. It was one of the more bold things I have ever done, but I trusted myself and I am proud of that. After much reflection, I realized that sometimes we find ourselves in situations that make us unhappy or uncomfortable only to drive us where we are truly meant to be.
I normally fear the unknown, but my heart was telling me to chase my dreams and pursue a career that’s more fulfilling. My calling was so powerful that I was naturally driven to face the change. And here I am, sitting in the unknown, writing, and riding the change. This isn’t a happily ever after, but more of a to be continued. My tale of woe isn’t over. I still have my days where I feel scared, anxious, and beat down. But, the feeling to be true to myself is overpowering and I’m following it, wherever it may take me.