Fuck yes, you’re a writer

Jessica Semaan
Credit: Pipe Yangas

While in a Lyft yesterday, a passenger, let’s call her Alarm, asked me what I do for a living. I hesitated. The voice in my brain for the millionth time doubted: “You’re not a real writer, you can’t even write this book.” I responded:

“At the moment I am figuring out what’s next. Every day I write, and I often share, but I don’t think I qualify as a writer, you know I have not written a book.”

Alarm seemed to have picked up on my hesitation and then turned to me “alarmed” and said:

“Fuck yes, you’re a writer. You write every day. What else do you need? A certificate?”

This is what I like to a call a wakeup moment, almost always brought to you by a stranger. This stranger is an Alarm.

I woke up today, with Alarm’s voice in my head.

Starting today:

Fuck yes I am a writer

Fuck yes I am a poet

Fuck yes I am writing this book

Fuck yes I am going to write every day

Fuck yes this book will be in your hands in 12 months

And fuck yes I am making money being a writer

All this time, I was dismissive of the idea that I can be a full-time writer. What I came to realize is my making myself small is simply a fear reaction. That’s it. Nothing else and no one else.
I am afraid of failing. Of writing a book that no one reads. Of the opinion of those who question who can call themselves a writer, humorist singer. Staying humble, has been my excuse to staying afraid. To hiding. To shrinking.

I am going to be a full-time writer. And while I do this, I am going to be your Alarm, and wake you up to the reality that:

Fuck yes you’re a writer

Fuck yes you’re a musician

Fuck yes you’re a runner

Fuck yes you’re an actor

Fuck yes you’re a podcaster

Fuck yes you’re a healer

Fuck yes you’re a leader

Fuck yes you’re a creator

Fuck yes you’re [insert your passion]

And fuck yes you are going to figure it out

We are going to figure out

I went ahead this afternoon and created a Patreon page. Let’s do this. Be part of my journey to be a full-time writer, and publishing my first book, by giving as little as $1 a month. Be my patron. I am doing this. You are doing this. We are doing this.

I love you,

Jessica the writer, poet, your Alarm

Pre-order your copy of child of the moon my first illustrated book of poetry

about child of the moon:
in between being your mother and father
i forgot to be your daughter
and became the child of the moon
inspired by the author’s traumatic childhood experiences and set against the backdrop of the lebanese civil war, child of the moon is a powerful collection of poetry reflecting on fear, shame, despair, suicide, and the unconditional love that leads to healing.

Jessica Semaan

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Lebanese poet. First book, Child of The Moon, available now. https://www.amazon.com/Child-Moon-Jessica-Semaan/dp/144949448X/ref=sr_1_1?ie=UTF8&qid=1540

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