Home is wherever I’m with me

originally written: August 13, 2017

I was born and raised on the East coast. The ocean truly was my playground. I looked out on the waves as I first contemplated the idea of forever. The sea went on with no end in sight.

We moved to the Prairies when I became a teenager. This is where I learned that the sky resting above can be even bigger. I often looked up to find forever stretching a stunning canvas of stars and storms and sunsets above me.

For the past 3 years my heart has rested here in beautiful BC. I have swam in the ocean, gazed at the stars, climbed mountains and walked through rainforests.

I have learned so much about me. I have learned a lot about forever here.

Right now I am at the most Western point of this country I have ever been. The waves are crashing, constantly bringing in the most alive energy and air. There is no room for stagnation or attachment here.

My heart has been feeling heavier as I approach my final nights of calling Vancouver home. So many memories and visions of what could have been keep sweeping through my mind. I anticipated this. How couldn’t I? So many amazing souls have come into my life here.

I question myself often. Is this the right choice? I know it is absolutely for this moment in time. I do not know what the future brings but I do know this.

Home is my favourite feeling. The security, the comfort and deep rooted ability to be yourself when you are home.

Vancouver really showed me this… it showed me that home is wherever I am. Wherever I find a place to sit, to close my eyes or look up into the stars. Where I feel loved and wherever I love.

My heart is trembling at the thought of leaving this coast. My heart is quivering at the thought of being with my family again. I am grateful beyond measure that I feel so much, the up and the down because it means that I love so much and have so much love in my life. This life is truly amazing.

Jess Nickerson Yoga — Pierre Grey’s Lakes Provincial Park, Alberta, Canada