Jhelum Anikhindi
Aug 23, 2017 · 1 min read

“I won’t have network for the next seven days. Take care.”

It’s day four, and my mind has gone through every possible worst case scenario of what could happen to you. It’s just day four and I’ve been through multiple anxiety attacks with a sinking feeling of abandonment. I’ve made it till here but now every dragging minute feels slower and slower. My life hasn’t stopped in your absence, everything keeps moving forward and takes me along. Yet, this loneliness has an effect that I can’t comprehend. It looms in a motion stealthily around my mind, my heart, my insides and manifests into a choking pain around my chest and my neck. Even on this bright sunny day, I’m breathing through the thick smoke of nothingness. The sun, the rain, the wind – none of them matter anymore; I’m living in the darkness you left behind. The high only takes me lower, the smiles only remind me of last night’s tear soaked pillow. The gloom approaches quicker than ever, even though I’m already living in it. Before I slip deep enough to never make it back, before I lose the will to take care of myself, I pray for my sunshine.

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Jhelum Anikhindi

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Author of 'Element of Words: 2016' (eBook), Poet & Writer at Element of Words, Chai Breaks, Spoken Word Artist, Procrastinator