10/18/2001
A Painting: Overdose on Love and Admiration

There she is, can’t you see her?
No son for I am blind but I once did see
Well fine sir let me paint you a picture
It is the least I can do
Well, thank you son; no sir, thank you.
I live to share the beauty that I have discovered
In this vast blackness of ugliness and wretched things
She is the light that black holes succumb too
It is she not Medusa whose sight makes a man powerless to move
Her hair is long and flowing each strand like a wind dancer playing in the gentle breeze
The treasures that lie behind the lids of her eyes far surpass any treasures that any man has discovered in all of time
Her smile is phenomenal like when the first rays of the sun rise above the highest snowcapped peaks of the Rockies
Her breast are fuller than even the fullest of moons
Her thighs are candy for the eyes like a baby bird’s first attempts at flight
Although you cannot see her surely you must sense her
She is the essence of woman
The quintessential female of the Millennium
She is strong, she is beautiful, and she is intelligent
All the ambition, all the drive, and all the tools to make things happen
Love her, applaud her, and adore her
Clear the way and make way for her
Oh I can smell her all around me now, can you smell her?
It’s a smell that smells so good that you already know how it will taste
Makes my mouth water like the Niagara for the day her taste is emblazoned across my face
To tickle her fancy is my ultimate fantasy far surpassing any of her previous volcanic-eruptive imaginings

Let me school you young one, call your young lady over to me and I will describe to you what my blind eyes can see
Okay good sir, here she is before you
Place my hands upon her face and I will tell you what I see
The curvature of her face is more pleasant than any other I have touched in my day
It is smooth, smooth like the other side of a down-feather pillow
Speak to me fair child
Hello kind sir, thank you for your kind words
Oh and her voice departs from her lips like the pluck of a guitar with a guitar’s pick
It is music to my ears and calming to mortal fears
Son, you have found a precious jewel in this world that can be so very cruel
Be for her what she needs from you
Put her feelings first then think about you
Make her feel like she deserves
Like she is the most important thing in your life
Like she is your reason for waking up each time
Treat her like a lady be honest never shady
And son more important than anything
Say I Love you and mean it
Or don’t say it at all!
Thank you sir, I promise I will never forget.

I Love you so much baby, I mean c’mon you’re my old lady
You are the most important thing in my life
And I want to spend everyday glorifying you as my wife
If you would do me the honor
I will be for you what I was unwilling to be for myself
And I will do for you what I once thought was beyond me to do
I am a cocooned caterpillar as we speak but with two little words
The butterfly inside me, you will release
The butterfly that is the precursor to the beast
The beast that will feast on our moon made of honey
Baby I’m gonna send you to Venus riding my penis like a space flight: explosive and ferocious beginning, consistent and persistent middle, and a long and awaited return to Earth.
A space flight created from intense Love and admiration
A space flight ascending into the outerness of space
At a speed beyond that of light
If your mind believes it than it is true
I know this is Love my heart tells me thru and thru

The soft imprints on the satin bed skins
Made by the little one that sprung from Mrs.
It’s like a part of me that I never doubted would be
But could not ever properly, mentally, prepare to be
What I now have to be, well I should say, want to be
Our Love is splendid like biting into the sweetest part of the pie that is life
You cannot satisfy me any more than you currently are
I say that with full knowledge that it will just guarantee that you will
You are my too good to be evil
You are my unwavering equal
If I could live the movie of my life again
Its sequel would be the first straight repeat
You cannot be topped
You cannot be stopped
You are this Universe’s pedigree crop
When you enter a room heart’s stop, pants drop
I cannot stop singing your praise
I am so glad that you are my Queen for all my days

She no longer appreciates me, damn b
She doesn’t say she loves me quite the same way
It sounds rehearsed it sounds like protocol
Fuck me, she wasn’t supposed to be the one to break the promise not ever, not once, not at all
She is not supposed to say she Love’s me and not mean it
Love does not conquer all
Not in the winter, spring, summer or fall
Was I blind, have I not been seeing
Was my mind or my heart, misleading
Either way I am a supernova
And the pain is breathing into the heart of me
Stop it you, that’s not proper thought
Think about it, this is it
That’s right, this is it
This is the moment where my principles get pinched
Now what am I gonna do suck it up
Or will I punk out, will I punk out like most would do
No suck it, suck it, suck it up!
This is a test you know the process
Now execute without refute or second thought, trust
If you don’t want me no more that’s fine
But our kid is just that, ours
Don’t think you will walk and take away
The life force that is driving me sub- and consciously
You must be an overripe pear from one of Summer’s pear trees
Bare from care because your insides hide no longer from a soul anywhere
The glow that was your smile has perished like a masterpiece befouled

Our love affair is over
I got the house
Our love affair is over
She got the cheese though she’s not fit to be called mouse
Our love affair is over
And I have peace in my heart
Our love affair is over
And I lied it’s ripping me apart
Our love affair is over
I am no longer one half of a greater whole
Our love affair is over
But I’m not afraid of growing old alone
Our love affair is over
And this is just a house not a home
Our love affair is over
It didn’t last very long
Our love affair is over
It must not have been so strong
Our love affair is over
It was supposed to last forever
But it didn’t
It was supposed to last forever
Forever is a long time
Its an eternity in fact
But our love didn’t make it
And it is never comin’ back
I asked myself, “Self, why is our love affair over?”
And myself responded quite simply,
“Because forever, took too long, to pass-over…”