Do you ever feel as if other people are living your dreams?
I've had a busy week and feel a bit in a bubble. I'm slightly detached and looking out to the life beyond but unable to burst through my immediate To Do's to try something new.
There are exciting things going on out there. And I am seeing people do the things I want to do. It's exciting...but I can't quite get at it!
I remember a time in the past when I didn't have a clue what I wanted to do with my life, the world seemed open with so many possibilities; I was paralysed by choice. And now, in a way, it's the opposite. I have so many things I want to explore, but they're just beyond my reach.
I think of the bubble as my day to day life. There are things in there that have to be done: running a household, looking after myself (add in extra stuff here for allergic life!), mental health, balancing emotions. And, of course, work and family. They all need to be in there, but what’s also needed is extra space. Not for putting more things in, but space to stay empty. For breath. And possibilities.
I might be able to refine some of what’s in there. But, ultimately, I need to work on having fewer things in my bubble, so that I can more clearly see the world outside and float towards it...and perhaps even pop out and try something different for a while...
