An excellent indictment of fundicostalism. Here’s the thing: when I went through almost the same experiences as you, I ultimately abandoned Christianity and then religion, entirely. I work now to better my life and living and to lift up all other beings into peace, love, and unity. Coming out as a gay man brought me the awareness to ask better questions and Christianity, along with a lot of other religions, miserably failed in their responses/answers/lack of consideration.
Good riddance to a regressive religion that promotes a degraded worldview.