I’m not a cry-er, but I had a brief spout with tears when I got to the end. It was weird actually, like it just came out.
Thanks for this. I would like to briefly share something.
I am disfellowshipped and have been since I was 22 (I’m 25 now). I got kicked out with little to no savings, and living in San Diego, I have been living paycheck to paycheck. Every now and then, I need help. My mom, despite not associating with me and despite minimizing communication with me, would always help me out financially if I needed it.
But yesterday, a bill went through sooner than I thought it would and my account was overdrawn $100. So I literally had not a cent to my name, for food or anything else, plus $100 of debt. I just asked my mom for funds to float my account, so that I didn’t accrue a $35 overdraft fee each day until I got paid (I don’t get paid till Friday, so it would have been around $200 in overdraft fees.) And I literally planned on just getting lucky with food, eating at work or at friends houses, and even considered having to steal groceries this week just so I can eat (hasn’t gotten to that point yet).
My mom finally texted back and said that she would help me if I took “positive steps to come back to Jehovah,” and by Jehovah, she means the earthly organization that she thinks God Almighty blesses, of course.
This made me so angry and sad. It’s her money and she can do what she wants with it, but I just looked at it for what it was: her son was asking to borrow a relatively small amount of money for five days. I wasn’t asking for a business loan, or to go out to a fancy dinner with her and thus bring her into God’s judgement for talking to her son. It had nothing to do with religion, and that’s what she made it about.
I just don’t know what to think anymore.
Thanks for this article. Beautiful pictures at the end — you guys look happy. I’m currently single, but part of me would like to find a woman who’s gone through a similar experience as I have with being a JW…I’ve dated “worldly” girls (lol… ‘worldly’) and they can only empathise with my situation, not having gone through it themselves. Although that could be a good thing as well.