Thank you Benjamin. This was a great read. I found it was speaking directly to me in so many ways. I have lived my entire life pretending to be someone. This especially included Christianity. I grew up in the church. I was there every damn Sunday. WHY? What was the point? We didn’t speak about it at home. Everything was so hollow. Addiction is what has saved me. Addiction made me face myself. My life is so full of shit. I don’t have all the answers. In fact, I don’t really have any. But, I know what he is doing for me. He is filling up the gaping hole in my heart. He is what I have been longing for.