Taking a Leap

What?

So what leap is it? Its about leaving my job and deciding to not work for sometime(3 months at least).

Why?

There are few things - technical(I am a Software Engineer) and non-technical which I wanted to do/learn/try since I completed my graduation(been 4 years) BUT I was never able to do(complete) due to deranged routine most of the time at work place. Working with startups, it happens most of the time. Its not that I was working crazy all the time but its more about the unbalanced lifestyle. Sometimes it was crazy as hell and sometimes it was chill. But to do these extra-mile things, you need discipline as its so easy to quit anytime(thats what I did so many times) when you are working crazy anyway in your full time job. Its not that I didn’t start, but I didn’t finish. In fact, I quit very early. Never mind!

And now -:
1) I am not clear about what am I doing.

2) I am not doing what I wanted to do/should be doing.

Above 2 made it so unsatisfying for me that I am just not feeling like working at all. My mind is so choked, I am not able to think at all. I feel lost most of the time. Doing something just for sake of a fixed monthly income — Nah, can’t do now.

Of course the best thing I could have done is to slowly do it with my job. But its not happening. And now to wait some more time in this extremely fast paced world doesn’t makes sense to me(at least right now ;-)). I feel like I am wasting my time. I am the least productive right now I have been in my life. So whats the point?

I don’t know if its right or wrong but won’t be a bad investment I believe. Either I’ll do it or I’ll know that I couldn’t. Both worth the time. At least I won’t feel that I didn’t try which I do right now.

Let’s see how will it go. :)