The honesty and courage with which you describe your funk is very well put…and I’m so sorry you’re in your “depression season”. Although this is certainly no consolation, you’re really not alone. You’ve got ever so much company! Just know that this, too, shall pass.
I’m sending you healing thoughts and positive energy…and maybe try shortening that To-Do List to 5, for starters. (It helps me, at least)!