The Friend-Zone

A sweet chronicle of a blurred line: FRIENDSHIP 

I’m no relationship expert… When it comes to falling in love I seem to run the wrong direction; Guys too available or not available at all, 5 minute prince charming turned into frogs and recently guys about to be married (more on that later).

But last saturday I cought up myself in a new situation in my relationship roller coaster, fooling around with a really good friend. Yeah yeah no shocker, lame situation but for me was MAD! I’m usually really up front with the guys I go out, there’s no friends-dates-sex-boyfriend, it’s usually date-sex-boyfriend NO friend… So there I was laying in his bed aroused and amazed my by view, but in the back of my mind all of his love, sex and friendly stories from the past and they were a bit too much (I managed to ignore them I was actually craving him) but when the heat of the moment was gone the room was filled by a humongous uncomfortable silence filled with awkwardness and “how should I behave?” .. As I left his house feeling like Joseph Gordon on 500 Days of Summer smiling to every single person I saw on the short drive home when I realized I had no idea how I was supposed to behave afterwards.. I felt all over like my thirteen year old self waiting for the boy I kissed last night text me or if I was lucky call me!! He texted next morning “thanks for last night, you are a super friend” WTF!! It would’ve been better if he said nothing and avoid the humiliation of a SUPER friendship, sorry but I don’t go around fooling around with my SUPER friends, in that matter of fact I don’t go fooling around.. Besides how do you rank friends? friends = regular friendship, good friend = kissable friend?, great friend = kissable maybe develop into something real friend? SUPER friend = kissable, fuckable friend? Geez..

So now 4 days later we are standing in this blurred line in which we won’t get involved since I’m leaving the country in two months but I wouldn't mind devoring him one again and earn my super friend title and pretending nothing happened and we are just two regular friends.. When did thing got so complicated? It was easier when we were kids and if the boy kissed you the obvious thing to do was punch him..

God I miss those days..