Day 7 of an everlasting series of failures

7 days into this gig I can truly say that I have a feeling that this journey will last. How can I tell? Probably not but this time around my black and white thinking is very grey. I used to get into these extreme life changes and whenever I did not stick to a “pre-agreed” task, the whole deal was off.

I think this time around, I can see the big picture and focus on my emotional stability and health. I can also see what is at stake breaking the cycle and I can make a conscious decision giving it up or staying on track.

Isn’t this character trait what sets us humans and animals apart? In between the environmental trigger and the physical action there is always a space that reflects our choice. We are not some impulsive monsters that only reacts on instinct. It is my choice not to do ______ rather than ________. We have to convince our mind that this thinking pattern is the new rule and remove the impulsive, “in the moment”, mind. Just a clear and rational mindset.

So if I don’t get up at 5am, my morning routine needs to be adjusted and I can’t do yoga for 30/45 min, complete my journal and get ready for the day. It might fail one day, so I can always do my best to do a better job tomorrow.