DAY 02: “The First Time My Heart Was Broken”

‘Love hurts. If you don’t wanna be hurt, don’t love.’

Love can turn everything round. Love brightens up your day, giving you another reason to smile and to bring happiness to others. ‘Yung feeling na puro Good Vibes lang ang mararamdaman mo’. We all experience to love and to be loved.

Same as the other students, I also have crushes during my high school days. I can’t consider it as a puppy love since I know that my feelings for her is true. But, she doesn’t even know it. Ughhhh!

I used to admire my schoolmate when I was in High School. I know it is not new anymore but that is the time when my heart beats that way. I can’t explain what I felt that time but I’m sure that, I fell in love with her. I am not even sure if it is love or just infatuation. But the only thing I’m sure is, I like her!

Her smile was contagious as it causes me to smile too. Her eyes were bright as I see the stars through it. Her laugh is such lovely where it can’t get out of my mind. ‘Para akong na-magnet sa kanya at di ko maalis sa aking isipan’. Those things brings joy to me every time I went to school. And that is also the reason, ‘kung bakit ako masipag pumasok sa school’.

Every time I saw her together with the other boys, I got jealous. Sad to say that I don’t have a right to be jealous since we are not committed yet to each other. It seems that I just keep on waiting for a miracle to happen, ‘na mapansin niya man lang sana ako, o kaya isang Hi man lang’. But I know that I should not surrender that time.

“I knew I loved her before I met her, I think I dreamed her into life”

During our Valentine’s Party where all students are having fun with their dates, I decided to ask her for a dance but, the moment I’m about to approach her, I saw her dancing with the other man. The heck, ‘Sino ba ‘yun?’. I asked my classmate with a kaltok on his forehead, ‘Sino yung lalaking kasayaw niya?’, and he answered me with a kaltok too on my forehead, ‘Iyan yung Boyfriend niya, ang pangit no? Mas pogi pa tayo dyan e.’ As I heard that, I suddenly felt being heart broken, and it hurts. I felt ‘Pinagbagsakan ako ng langit at lupa with matching ulap at paso’.

Lesson learned! ‘Wag masyadong mag-assume at umasa, kasi masasaktan at masasaktan ka lang’. That time, reality hardly slapped my face waking me up to stop dreaming. If I could just reformat my brain like a Memory Card, I will!

After Graduation, I already moved on. I realized that she is just one out of the billion girls around the world. ‘Di siya kawalan’.

Right now, I have my focus on studies and especially, pursuing God since he has better plan for us. ‘Mayroon siyang inilaan para sa atin at di to dapat madaliin’ but you should love him first. He is the only one who can give you love that is unconditional, true and everlasting. Loving him will give you no regrets.

At this time, wounds are healed and broken hearts are fixed. Another opportunity is coming. ‘At kung paparating na si special someone sent by God, why not di’ba?’.

Don’t find love, love will find you!