I Can’t Consume Social Media. I Am Not Smart Enough.
I have a very tiny head. Seriously, barely any hats fit me. Growing up, helmets were always a struggle.
My brain is even smaller.
I have such a small amount of room in my head, I have to meditate for half an hour every morning to clean it all out, just so I can think somewhat clearly during the day.
Last night, I consumed social media for the first time in a couple weeks. I sat on my phone, scrolling through Instagram photos, then Snapchat stories, then Instagram stories, just pummeling my poor brain with information.
This morning, I woke up with what feels like a hangover.
I haven’t drank for quite a while, so I mostly forget what a hangover is like, but from what I remember, this was the same thing.
I think it was a combination of the lack of sleep that always happens when I look at my phone at night, the increased amount of information in my head, causing my brain to work harder through the night, and the hyperactive thinking supported by the accelerated task-switching thought patterns that comes along with consuming the gross stuff.
I am convinced that no one that consumes social media regularly is able to fully focus. I have trouble trusting these people.
Maybe I’m the odd one out. Maybe I’m the special one, the unlucky human who isn’t blessed with the ability to consume social media and lead a normal life.
Or maybe, just maybe, I’m the only one willing to be honest about it.